Capital punishment .... for a tattoo

From ancient days tattoos have existed .... tribal tattoos being the first ever ....painfully engraved into the skin with sharp stones or crude tools . 

WHY were they done ....to establish an identity . 

Nowadays along with identity its fashion , need to be diferent , look sexy , show courage etc . Ancient times the whole tribe supported you and celebrated . 

Nowadays the first look you get makes you feel that you ought to be in Tihar jail for some aweful crime . Weirdo , strange , anti social and such other adjectives find you easily . The only people who would actually support you are the ones with the same or more eccentricities as you .

Big round eyes and jaw drop expressions greet you evrywhere .....what made you do something so crazy ...

 I wonder why they feel that Crazy people are Sane enough to sit through a tattoo session ? Some people even comment with a disgusting expression that .... How can you allow some strange person to scribble things on you !!! 

If any of my relatives were tattoo artists maybe i would not go to any ''strange '' person to get scribbled on . By the way i need to say that I truely respect my tattoo artist who was a thorough professional and an artist to respect . It takes amazing guts to put a needle to a strangers arm .... every second a risk of a mistake that would be a scar for life . If the person was a six footer or a violent one then there also stood the risk of a broken tooth Or a twisted arm !!! . Immense respect for the artist . 

Personally i really dont know what made me do it . My dare devil sis took the first step . I still remember when she messaged me that she was getting in for the gruesome deed , i imagined her hand being pierced to pieces with a drill with an enormous evil looking needle . And that till she said Done ! I almost mourned her . 

She has always been immensely talented in convincing me about eve4rything . But mind never accepted ....a year went by in doubt and second thoughts .

When your life is filled with many fears that haunt you everyday .....beyond a certain point these very fears cease to exist . Its like Familiarity breeding contempt .....   

Dear life , do not scare a person so much that fear looses its meaning .

Finally a day arrived when i decided to face all my fears , to leave behind helplessness and illness and unpleasant memories and take life into my hands once and for all . Finding people i loved and had left behind while rushing through everyday , getting back all that i was passionate about and Resuming writing were a few of these . The tattoo might not be the first in that list but it definitely was something that never left my mind .

Something to call my own , something to which nobody could lay a claim . Something that would be a part of me and nobody could take away ...as it had happened severaltimes in the past . A sense of freedom and liberty that you get after you conquer a fear !  

Maybe an attempt to look at life in the face and say with courage and pride that you cant scare me anymore .... I live my life on my terms now and I will be Happy . You may wonder whether a simple tattoo would do all this for you .... maybe it will ... The fear and reluctance to get into the artists office , to say Yes i have decided , to take a desicion that is permanent and cannot be afforded by the fickle minded ( which i have been in the past ) , to sit and watch with apprehension when he shows you the tools and needles , to say a prayer as he starts drawing the first line , to experience relief when you realise that the pain is actually bearable and finally when he says Done ! ...that wide smile that unknowingly stays on your face even when u leave the studio and the mind does a hundred cartwheels of absolute joy ..... YES the experience is absolutely worth it . Weird or strange ...but i am HAPPY and i think that is all that matters ultimately .Find things that make you happy , nobody else will do it for you ever . And once you find it waste no time in thinking what people will think . People would find things to talk about the Mahatma or Gautam Buddha too ! Is giving up your happiness even worth such people .When people judge you , just feel happy that you amused atleast a few people .....filling their few minutes with hapiness that they get by commenting on you . A noble deed indeed !