Finding Yourself...Again

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This blog is dedicated to anyone who has traveled personally or seen someone going through the dangerous and lonely journey called Depression. 

The blog is based on Actual experiences and aims at making people understand the exhausting turmoil, so that they in turn can help someone going through this.  

Firstly - Depression is not a Mental illness. It is just a phase in life like any other struggle.  

Secondly - Only the person who goes through it knows the exact pain so do not judge or give your conclusions, because it may cause damages that you cannot even fathom.

Last but Most Important - It is not the end of the World, YOU CAN COME OUT OF IT.You just need to have the Will power and mental courage. 

And most important, You need to Love life and Yourself  and those people who Love you.

I hope I have done justice to it. Please do read and share on our wall if you feel it will touch somebody out there and inspire them to Be brave and Overcome the hurdles.
Thanks in advance .
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At least once in a lifetime, we all get lost. Sometimes it is just silly, sometimes we choose to get lost and at times it is due to reasons beyond our understanding or our control.

Like being trapped in dark woods and walking in circles. The more we try to find our way, the deeper we wander into the unknown.

At certain instances the light shines on the way out. But by then some of us are so into the darkness that now it is the light that scares us.
We stand scared stiff till the light dims down and go then back into the darkness that is now a relentless companion. Untiring, strong, influential, unwavering in its efforts to keep us in its control.

And we keep walking on the path it shows us. Along with the darkness come other bad companions like tears and hopelessness. It is not an illness. It is a deep hollow feeling. So deep that light does not reach it. Hope and life seem like stars in the sky, seen but not reachable.

The scariest parts of the woods presents itself when the darkness tricks you into believing very strongly that nothing matters and there is no point in even breathing now. Letting go of life is the only option that will set you free of the chains that are tearing into your skin right now. The wounds have grown so deep by now that the lost soul is ready to do anything to release the pain. A deep soulful pain that causes scars that are never going to fade away. No medicine or healing will ever take it away.

Lucky are those who see a little bit of sun at that moment. Or the thought of a loved one that manages to tear through every darkness. A job, a best friend, kids, parents anything .

If you manage to see that single ray of light in that impenetrable forest then grab hold of it because your life depends on it... literally !

Courage needs to be held on in order to give our mind and heart that extra ounce of  strength , not to move towards the light, but to "Make the decision " to move towards the light.

Deciding that you want the healing to take place is the toughest phase.

The doubts, the confusions, the trauma that clouds your mind are like storm clouds.
 They engulf each nook and corner of your mind like a parasite that drains your energy and your life. It washes away every color and leaves you with only gray and black and white.

You sit in a noisy crowd and feel utmost loneliness. You sit alone and you cannot bear the noise the battle inside your mind creates.
You hug someone and feel as though the world is tying you up in a chain of thorns.
You sit alone and want someone to just speak to you or hold your hand or wake you from this nightmare. Or just hold you till you cry out every sorrow or every trauma inside.
You are and you are not alive at the same time.

So deciding to come out of it or wanting to be healed is a huge leap towards the light.
And once you decide this the lighted path shows itself to you. Then there should be no looking back. Just keep walking down in the direction of the light. Hold on to every support during this walk. As the light grows brighter and you take each step forward,  memories of the darkness that was once your soulmate starts to take a step backwards. 

It takes time to adjust to the brightness. But it feels good.
The wounds heal, very very slowly but they do start to heal.
The slower the healing takes place the stronger you become.

The scars always remain to remind you of what you went through and what you survived.
They become medallions gifted to a mind and a heart that were wounded beyond recognition but fought valiantly and won !

It is never too late or wrong to ask for Help. Asking or seeking help is the first major step towards healing and change .

The healing is slow and painful but it does happen. We just need to Believe that there is a miracle called Hope .
Faith and hope and prayers always help you.
Sometimes it comes late but help always comes. In the form of friends or a book or a family member or just a call from someone who matters.
Hold on to Hope for the sake of people who actually care for you.

Heal yourself and Move on .





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